Sunday, March 26, 2006
♥ Heart Wrenching
Hmm.. I almost cannot wake up today!! Lucky got my mother to wake me up.. Hehe. I'm meeting mr ang at 11am, but I changed it to 11.30 instead. Hehe... Cause I prepare very long. = p The weather was extremely hot you know?? I almost melted while waiting for mr ang, and somemore, he was 15 minutes late.. It's okay as I was talking to my mother's friends!! Wow, she really has many friends you know??? Haha..
After that, I went to meet jo and wing to go chua chu kang to take something.. Haha. They were late... I was quite early these few days!! Hehe... We went there for a while as it's abit rush... We have to accompany xiu li to cpf building and I need to go office too!! Haha... We went to take the skirt from the person then went to eat.. Haha. I got gastric pain you know?? Stomach wasn't feeling very well these few days!! So sad... = (
After that, we went to jurong east to meet xiu li. She reached there quite early... Haha. But then cause slyvester was performing there, so she wasn't very bored!! Wing left as she had to buy lunch for her brother to eat... We went to tajong pagar to cpf building, but too bad, it was closed!!! Haha.. Think cause because it's weekend today, then open only half day ba. It was raining at that time, lucky it's not heavy rain.... So, I went to the office!!! Jo and xiu li waited for me at lau pa sat... I was feeling so scared you know??? I also don't know why... I have the feeling that he will be there.. And he was really there you know??? Haha... Actually, I'm not very sure is him, then when he turned abit, I was so shocked!!! Haha... My heart was beating so fast you know?? Cause I was thinking of him before I saw him!! Then the people around me saw me staring at him, so I acted blur, pretend to be finding people... Haha.. = p
Mr alvin wasn't in the office at that time, so ms jessie asked me to call mr kit. When I walked out of the room, I don't dare to look at him you know?? I was feeling so nervous... I wanted to look at him but I don't dare!!! Abit regretted... Haha.. At least a smile I will be feeling very happy ready.. Cause you will feel very happy if the person you like smile at you right?? Mr kit taught me alot and I was feeling relax-without any troubles. I am very touched to know that mr kit, ms jessie and mr alvin care for me, cause they are thinking of ways to help me to hit my position... After talking to mr kit, he made me have the confidence again to fight for sales.. = ) He was correct, you will never succeed when you don't have the courage to step out the first step. He also realised that I didn't go to office for quite some time ready. I thought nobody will notice it. Haha. Cause people only notice those managers and above..
I felt happy when I go office cause the people there were all very friendly... They will take initiative to talk to you first.. And surprising, many of my friends and I agreed that there's no reason why we like to go to office even when there's nothing for us to do. I mean, we will feel like going there and like going there. I also don't know why.. Haha. Like people ask why you like him?? There's no reason for that.. Won't you feel tired if you need a reason for everything?? Life is short, I believed that if we cherish everyone around us and do what we want, we will not regret!!!
I left after some time as jo and xiu li was waiting for me at lau pa sat.. Later they chase me with a chopper how?? Haha. You know what?? I was expecting him to say hi to me when he walked passed me when I was calling you know??? But then, he didn't la.. I felt a little disappointed at that time-also don't know why.. I felt that we are like a total stranger after he went for NS.. I also don't know why.. It's real sad you know??? I don't want things to work out in this way!!! Really don't want!! = (
I saw his botak head.. Haha. Actually not much different, he looked cute.. Hehe. = p
Old chang kee was fulled of our people when I walked pass.. Haha.. Cause most of the air conditioner places was closed... Haha. = p jo, xiu li and I chatted for some time at lau pa sat before going city hall to meet someone.. Cause jo brought a bag from auction.. Haha. That bag I also have, but hers is little brown. Not too bad, quite nice!! Hehe. = ) After that, we went to bugis. Like very busy hor?? Cause xiu li wants to look for bags ma.. She wants to use it when she go poly. I cannot buy ready, cause I had already had many bags at home and brought many bags!!! Later get scolded by my mother how?? Hehe. = p We only walked for a while at bugis village cause xiu li cannot find the bag she wants plus it's so stuffy there.. She cannot stand it, so we left.. Jo and I took neo prints you know?? Haha. It was very nice, but then, no time to decorate more.. Hehe. = p I also saw many books!!!! I want to go and buy it one day, probably next week?? Very entusiastic to buy the books cause they are very nice!!! = p
We went jurong point to walk walk for a while... Didn't really buy anything cause no money ready... Haha. Tomorrow is my father's birthday and I don't know what to get for him-except to wish he will strike the first prize for lottery.. Haha. = p I will be giving him the money I gotton today as I just sold 2 bottles of element five!!! Hehe. I want to give him the money and hope he will be lucky and succeed in whatever he do!!! = ) Actually I wanted to write a letter for him, but then I don't dare to give him and also don't dare to write... I scared it's too mushy.. Hehe.
Jo and I chatted for some time while waiting for the bus. We nearly cried!!! Haha. Cause we were talking about the guys we liked... You know, it's very tiring and sad to have one sided love.. to like the person when you don't know whether the person likes you anot.. You will feel happy when the person treats you very well... But then, it's like giving us hope!! I think that if you don't like the person, you should not give the person hope as you will be hurting the person even more... = ( My heart was really painful at that time cause I really miss him and don't know if he likes me anot.. Actually, if you like a person, you don't mind if the person likes you anot... You will feel very happy when you get to see him, when he treats you well, cares for you, smile at you, notices you, ect...
I felt very sad when I thought of him.. I think that I am giving myself more hopes and likes him even more!!! There's no way for me to forget about him cause my whole mind is only him!!! I really don't know what to do.. I kept thinking of him, wanting to see him.. Yet, I don't dare to look at him when I see him nor I dare to talk to him.. Sometimes I do hate myself for being a coward.. But then, why it's me who take the initiative everytime?? I really hope to let him know how I feel.. I don't mind if he don't like me, I like him can ready... I just want to let him know how I feel can ready.. I don't ask for much.. Can keep contact with him... He is really a nice guy, will not make you feel lonely or bored... I felt happy and fun when we chat.. Haha. He also treats me very good... = p
Hmm... better stop blogging.. I am really feeling very sad and my eyes was really painful. My heart was really very painful you know?? I cried when I was reading through my blog, plus, the conversation of jo and I.. I felt really very stupid... I can understand how she feels, as I do feel the same way as her. Why we like the person, but don't know the person like us anot... Why do we feel so tired and sad to like the person?? Why do we keep thinking of the person and giving ourselves hope?? Why?? I really don't know.. Is there true love?? Can relationship last?? I want trust and believe in a relationship... Don't you think it's very important??? If there's no trust and believe, there will be quarrels and break ups..
After that, I went to meet jo and wing to go chua chu kang to take something.. Haha. They were late... I was quite early these few days!! Hehe... We went there for a while as it's abit rush... We have to accompany xiu li to cpf building and I need to go office too!! Haha... We went to take the skirt from the person then went to eat.. Haha. I got gastric pain you know?? Stomach wasn't feeling very well these few days!! So sad... = (
After that, we went to jurong east to meet xiu li. She reached there quite early... Haha. But then cause slyvester was performing there, so she wasn't very bored!! Wing left as she had to buy lunch for her brother to eat... We went to tajong pagar to cpf building, but too bad, it was closed!!! Haha.. Think cause because it's weekend today, then open only half day ba. It was raining at that time, lucky it's not heavy rain.... So, I went to the office!!! Jo and xiu li waited for me at lau pa sat... I was feeling so scared you know??? I also don't know why... I have the feeling that he will be there.. And he was really there you know??? Haha... Actually, I'm not very sure is him, then when he turned abit, I was so shocked!!! Haha... My heart was beating so fast you know?? Cause I was thinking of him before I saw him!! Then the people around me saw me staring at him, so I acted blur, pretend to be finding people... Haha.. = p
Mr alvin wasn't in the office at that time, so ms jessie asked me to call mr kit. When I walked out of the room, I don't dare to look at him you know?? I was feeling so nervous... I wanted to look at him but I don't dare!!! Abit regretted... Haha.. At least a smile I will be feeling very happy ready.. Cause you will feel very happy if the person you like smile at you right?? Mr kit taught me alot and I was feeling relax-without any troubles. I am very touched to know that mr kit, ms jessie and mr alvin care for me, cause they are thinking of ways to help me to hit my position... After talking to mr kit, he made me have the confidence again to fight for sales.. = ) He was correct, you will never succeed when you don't have the courage to step out the first step. He also realised that I didn't go to office for quite some time ready. I thought nobody will notice it. Haha. Cause people only notice those managers and above..
I felt happy when I go office cause the people there were all very friendly... They will take initiative to talk to you first.. And surprising, many of my friends and I agreed that there's no reason why we like to go to office even when there's nothing for us to do. I mean, we will feel like going there and like going there. I also don't know why.. Haha. Like people ask why you like him?? There's no reason for that.. Won't you feel tired if you need a reason for everything?? Life is short, I believed that if we cherish everyone around us and do what we want, we will not regret!!!
I left after some time as jo and xiu li was waiting for me at lau pa sat.. Later they chase me with a chopper how?? Haha. You know what?? I was expecting him to say hi to me when he walked passed me when I was calling you know??? But then, he didn't la.. I felt a little disappointed at that time-also don't know why.. I felt that we are like a total stranger after he went for NS.. I also don't know why.. It's real sad you know??? I don't want things to work out in this way!!! Really don't want!! = (
I saw his botak head.. Haha. Actually not much different, he looked cute.. Hehe. = p
Old chang kee was fulled of our people when I walked pass.. Haha.. Cause most of the air conditioner places was closed... Haha. = p jo, xiu li and I chatted for some time at lau pa sat before going city hall to meet someone.. Cause jo brought a bag from auction.. Haha. That bag I also have, but hers is little brown. Not too bad, quite nice!! Hehe. = ) After that, we went to bugis. Like very busy hor?? Cause xiu li wants to look for bags ma.. She wants to use it when she go poly. I cannot buy ready, cause I had already had many bags at home and brought many bags!!! Later get scolded by my mother how?? Hehe. = p We only walked for a while at bugis village cause xiu li cannot find the bag she wants plus it's so stuffy there.. She cannot stand it, so we left.. Jo and I took neo prints you know?? Haha. It was very nice, but then, no time to decorate more.. Hehe. = p I also saw many books!!!! I want to go and buy it one day, probably next week?? Very entusiastic to buy the books cause they are very nice!!! = p
We went jurong point to walk walk for a while... Didn't really buy anything cause no money ready... Haha. Tomorrow is my father's birthday and I don't know what to get for him-except to wish he will strike the first prize for lottery.. Haha. = p I will be giving him the money I gotton today as I just sold 2 bottles of element five!!! Hehe. I want to give him the money and hope he will be lucky and succeed in whatever he do!!! = ) Actually I wanted to write a letter for him, but then I don't dare to give him and also don't dare to write... I scared it's too mushy.. Hehe.
Jo and I chatted for some time while waiting for the bus. We nearly cried!!! Haha. Cause we were talking about the guys we liked... You know, it's very tiring and sad to have one sided love.. to like the person when you don't know whether the person likes you anot.. You will feel happy when the person treats you very well... But then, it's like giving us hope!! I think that if you don't like the person, you should not give the person hope as you will be hurting the person even more... = ( My heart was really painful at that time cause I really miss him and don't know if he likes me anot.. Actually, if you like a person, you don't mind if the person likes you anot... You will feel very happy when you get to see him, when he treats you well, cares for you, smile at you, notices you, ect...
I felt very sad when I thought of him.. I think that I am giving myself more hopes and likes him even more!!! There's no way for me to forget about him cause my whole mind is only him!!! I really don't know what to do.. I kept thinking of him, wanting to see him.. Yet, I don't dare to look at him when I see him nor I dare to talk to him.. Sometimes I do hate myself for being a coward.. But then, why it's me who take the initiative everytime?? I really hope to let him know how I feel.. I don't mind if he don't like me, I like him can ready... I just want to let him know how I feel can ready.. I don't ask for much.. Can keep contact with him... He is really a nice guy, will not make you feel lonely or bored... I felt happy and fun when we chat.. Haha. He also treats me very good... = p
Hmm... better stop blogging.. I am really feeling very sad and my eyes was really painful. My heart was really very painful you know?? I cried when I was reading through my blog, plus, the conversation of jo and I.. I felt really very stupid... I can understand how she feels, as I do feel the same way as her. Why we like the person, but don't know the person like us anot... Why do we feel so tired and sad to like the person?? Why do we keep thinking of the person and giving ourselves hope?? Why?? I really don't know.. Is there true love?? Can relationship last?? I want trust and believe in a relationship... Don't you think it's very important??? If there's no trust and believe, there will be quarrels and break ups..
3/26/2006 12:38:00 AM
