I'm so bloody tired!!!
having to go to sch in the day and work at night
somemore this is the first time I gotta work till 12 midnight
well, it's not a bad experience for me...
but, I guess I'm alittle unlucky...
from gastric pain to moody to suay...
I broke a plate of eggs just now!! omg!!
Somemore on my pants and legs!!! =_=
it happened after jl helps me, opps...
I didn't say jl brings me the bad luck either. =p
wonder why u suddenly help me pack,
perhaps cos u know I got gastric pain??
talking about this, I'm touched tat the uncle went to look for med for me!!
u?? u didn't do anything, but, at least u did concerned...
and gotta bear with wat others said.. thanks. =))
at least I do feel something this time... really...
I also wanna thanks an an too, for fulfilling ur promise,
u really came and sent me home! lol...
so touched... haha... many many thanks for u guys...
I don't know why, I do feel like crying, but,
tears just can't flow down...
perhaps I'm much stronger now??
I yearn to cry, to have a big cry, but, I just cant! sounds stupid right?
I do grow up alot after working, makes me much stronger now
but, troubles do increase, like wat ppl always say
when there's something good, there'll be something bad
optimistic, and happy, where're u??
I recalled wat liyun auntie told me just now, "why do u seems like u've lots of 心事? where's the happy go lucky and optimistic cindy??"
my tears feel like flowing down at that time, I really dunno wat to say...
..........................................

My eyes are going to close
feeling so sleepy and tired
can't concentrate at all!! my god!!
there's class tml and ... also work for me
and, I gotta work till 12 midnight! lol...
wonder if I can wake up on time on fri! hah
time is running out, I gotta quickly finish my essays!
3 essays! how am I going to finish it??
gotta finish it before christmas!!
tell u a good news!
I gotta go hongkong!!! hees!!! ^^
finally! I'm so excited!!
but, such a pity tat we've to visit a wulu place which I don't really like!!
anyway, it's great to be able to travel
gotta shop and shop and shop!!! keke...=pp
make full use of 2007, enjoy and play hard
my dream is really coming true~~
we gotta study the whole day starting from next yr!!
omg!!! it's really hectic le!! but... no choice la
hope I'm able to handle everything...
haha... okok, I gotta go... see ya!! =))

Isn't the bear adorable?? I managed to get the bear after 2 attempts! keke...=p Do u want 1?? I can give it to u... hees...


Christmas christmas... is drawing nearer wor!!! there's many things in my mind...

A new phone, video camera, laptop, watch, clothings, bag, etc...

Levis watch!!! isn't the white watch cool?? keke...=pp


There're many things I would like to get... but...
what is the things that I really want??
haha... hmm... I suddenly can't think of any
I'm so eager to go overseas...
I guess god heard my prayers!!
I finally can get to go overseas! keke.=p
but, I dun bear to leave spore le... lol... =_=

my parents hope to go in the mid dec, but, I can't
due to my exams assignments!! gotta drag to after christmas
I want to spend my christmas in spore, and of course,
not forgetting my buddies' birthdays! ^^

okok, I gotta go... gotta wake up early for class later on...
so excited to meet mus later on~~ although we just meet up
everything will be fine, no worries, hope to hear ur good news ya. xD

My legs are so tiring!!
an an and I walked all the way back from je!
my god!! admired our determination!
we spent an hr plus walking!!! lol...
paiseh for having such a "good" suggestion. xD

we went to watch Bee Movie just now
well, it's a funny and cute show... love it... haha...
guess who I saw when we went for a drink??
I saw JIANG NAN and qi feng!
omg! didnt get to see him for very very long ready
really happy and surprised to see him! haha...
such a pity tat I can't wait to see joo!
no worries, I'm sure we'll get to meet up soon
CHRISTMAS christmas!! coming!! hohoho... ^^

U were happy n giggling when u called
but, when u knew I was out with an an
u were so angry till u nearly burst
I was so afraid tat u would scream at me
but, u didn't... I know u were angry cos u mind
u off today and we didnt go out... (who ask u didnt date me out!!)
I was wrong too, I should have called ur house instead
sorry... I didn't catch ur hint. both of us were waiting for each other to say out!
but, I did perk u up okay!! keke...=p
I know u cant bear to be angry with me!!! hahaha... PUKE~!!

anyway, glad tat everything is settled!! keke...=pp
thanks for paying for so much today...
alittle bu hao yi si... I shall treat the next time! =))

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why do I feel so horrible??
not only my mood is horrible, I suddenly feel that
I'm a terrible person!!! lol...
so moody and things wasn't going smoothly recently
hope things will change better soon.

I'm suddenly so into movies and shows!
so many movies that I would like to watch!!!
and, I also brought lots of vcds and dvds when I go out
and also brought them online!! my god!
from cartoons to romance to comedy...
so eager to start watching all of them now!!!
lol... tat's a good way to release stress too wor! keke...=p
okok, I gotta go out ready... see ya! =))

I'm so bloody tired!!
finally can get to sleep longer!!
but, my head still hurts alot, seems so empty...
perhaps due to degeneration of brain cells ba.. lol..
ytd's exams was freaky difficult and horrible!
hah, I guess I gotta retake the module. =((
it's getting harder and harder and I'm thinking...
if I can hang on to the last yr

had been thinking alot for the past few days
what do I really want?
what do I expect?
why do I have to lie to myself to make myself better?
I feel so stupid and naive!!!
actually I do know, right??
what's holding me back??
to move on or to stop everything??

The exams just now wasn't that bad...
much better than ytd one
wonder how difficult will tml's one be??
BRAIN!!!
made me recall of the cartoon I had watched
the pinky and brain, the pinky and the brain
brain brain brain brain brain brain
BRAIN...
hahahaha... I love this song alot! lol...
I hope it won't be that difficult please!!
hope I will be able to attempt the qns...
studyin the notes is driving me crazy!!
my head hurts alot these few days!!
gotta sleep longer after tml! keke...=p

Tell u something!!!
I brought clinique products just now!! My god!!
it's really ex!!! hope it's really a good product xD
I didn't get to see u since monday!!
hmm, suddenly feel like seeing u
hahaha... nvm, will get to see u tml
okok, gotta go and rest for awhile before studying...
see ya!! jia you!

Oh my god!!!
the exams just now was a disaster!
although the short answers were quite alright
but, the essays were terrible!!
I suddenly recall tat I mixed up the info
after reading through my notes again just now!
Argh!! kill me please!!
the questions that I think will come out did came out!
but, cos of my carelessness.....
sigh, really very saddening le!
my head really hurts alot and I dun even know wat I'm thinking!
omg omg omg!!
we were discussing just now tat specialist dip
is really a big change for us...
hope I'm able to cope and handle it
haha... if today's like this, wat about fri's neuro one??
my god!!! I dare not think about it!
going to rest for awhile before starting to study!!
bear till fri and I can get to have a good sleep! xD

* Ohh, guess who I saw just now?
I saw sara!! keke... really miss her alot!
we didn't get to see each other for about a yr ready!!!
hope to see ya soon ya!! ^^

Exams exams exams...
Having exams the whole week!
basic to diploma to specialist diploma
it's really tough...
things are getting harder and
my confidence is getting lesser
hahaha... I'm so worried about tml
gotta write essays on the spot!!!
what if I can't think of anything??
what if ...
it's really scary!
really hope I know how to ans the qns
and of course, be able to score
haha... =p

I had a great time these few days
gotta know u guys more?!
sorry tat we cannot chat longer
perhaps after my exams ya!
sure be able to meet up one!
keke... also must ask jie la
later he jealous again! lol...
going to study now! jia you!!! =)

My head and throat hurts alot!! =_=
Actually planning just to acc jennifer & her daughter to pasa malam
and acc sw for awhile ytd....
nv did I thought tat I'll bumped into an an and gim mo
gim mo asked me to join them for movie!
of course I didn't agree la!--No card + not enough $$
so, we went for a drink!!! lol...
(we had alcoholic drinks!hahaha...shhh)
said to be fair, but, ended up, I even gotta drink ur share!
but, who asked u to be sick!?!?
then I thought they had went home, they called
and asked us to go join them again
at yz's block downstairs and had alittle more...
the feelings was terrible, u dont feel anything sitting
but when u stand up, my god! u feel like
the world is shaking! hahaha... I couldn't even stand properly!
touched tat gim mo really sent me home & called after tat to concern! =))
not forgetting sw too! thanks alot! sry tat u gotta run marthon home after tat
haha... muacks! ^^
we promised tat it would be a secret
he must nv know... otherwise...
we still feel tat we should call him ytd & see wat will he do... xD

Oh my god!!
I had been spending alot recently!
From clothings to cosmetic to cds & vcds to books
hmm, what else had I brought??
really going broke soon!! gotta save up!!!
Otherwise I'll nv be able to get a new hp!!!

Is money really tat important?
do u agree tat money can buy love?
贫穷与公主...
my god! 难怪你一直觉得配不上我
I don't know why she told u all those things
why did she tell u so much things about me
even about my family matters! lol...
I can sense that u mind alot
and has no confidence...
u, urself also said tat
does tat mean tat u'll have confidence
if u're rich?
is money tat important in a relationship?
I know money is impt, but, it isn't everything right?
真心相爱不就好了吗?
除非你不喜欢我... 要不然我什么都不在意
if I can overcome everything, wat's holding u back?
Feeling sort of moody just now...
everything just doesn't go smooth
perhaps I'm thinking too much again...

We didn't really talk while working just now
hmm, u weren't happy cos of wat yz said
partly also cos of my black face la... hah
he told u alot wor...
and u mind aot
u asked me about it and I can see tat u were quite affected by it
and I'm bad too... like adding oil to it
I said something bad and was guilty, sorry.
but then, u also lor!
thought u'll wait but, u didn't...
I understand, u were really tired, cant get to go back early just now
I'm not angry ready. haha... I understand
glad tat u did called and did expained
u told me alot and somehow got to understand u more
the tone was much much better, very very gentle
haha... ok la, forgive u la, did make an effort to call me even
when u were so exhausted...
only this time hor! haha... must treat me better!!! lol
finally gotta see an an just now! really miss him alot! xD
he appeared infront of me the moment I mentioned him to ah lan!
omg! haha... how I wish is..... xD
lalalala... I going to bath...

矢望矢望...
还以为真的会出去
结果, ............
害我白兴分一场
总觉得你的朋友好像来得比我重要
但想着想着
我们又是什么关系呢??
什么都不是啊...
嗨...
还是不要想这样多吧!!
放弃还是执着呢???
是真的吗???

sweet sweet sweet
feeling sweet today, although I'm very tired
really feel like sleeping
I've lack of sleep these few days! I want to have a good sleep ah!
exams coming!!!
assignments deadlines drawing near!
my god! going to have anxiety! haha...
I'm so worried and scared!
don't really understand what teachers are teaching
will I be able to answer the questions??
pray hard pray hard
better sleep early, I nearly overslept today! =_=
lalala... good night!!

好失望喔
原本以为你真的会...
没想到...
失望失望失望!

Sigh...
why always like that?
always not successful one...
is it really fated??
suwen and I had a bet... and...
none of us win... haha... fair...
诚诺不见了! haha...

Yippee!!
finally can log in to my bbdc account!!!
really happy! had some probs with my password for a week! so sian!
they really earn alot of $$$ wor
first time retrieving of password is free
subsequent time is $10.70! =_=

guess who I saw there??
I saw Mr H!!
didnt get to see him for about 8 months plus ready??
didnt know I'll meet him there!
he saw me and still rmbs me! but, I was the 1 escaping!
说不出的感觉
surprised tat u also go and learn drivin, maybe we may be in the same class? lol...

U were jealous and angry when I went to meet zhi yong!
omg!! forever jealous! opps... =p
lucky I did acc u to eat in the afternoon, otherwise u sure bomb.. xD
I know u're vexed, troubled...
I also dunno how to help u, but, I hope u'll be happy
no matter wat decision u make, I'll give u my full support. =)

I'm really super blur!!
mr alam saw me on street and honk at me
I heard but didnt look inside! hahaha... so paiseh!
sorry ya! hope u're doing well and hope to see ya soon! =)

broke broke broke!! I spend alot le!!
I release my stress by shopping online! really broke le!!
gotta save up!!!

Donuts!!!

It looks freaking nice right?!?! yummy!! ^^


Brought it at Bukit panjang plaza just now!! There were so many ppl queuing for it!!
hmm, thinking back, there're many diff donuts shops now
which shops sell the best donuts??
Hmm...

We went to Westmall after that...
the first thing I brought there was...
SHOES!!!
my god!! somemore 2 pairs of shoes!!
well, they were okok only la, looks nice there, feel like refunding when I brought back!
lol...

not too bad ba... hahaha...=p


I wanna buy hp ah!!! Saving up now!! keke...
hopefully my parents will fork out half for me la! =p
U said u wan to buy the same phone too!
hopefully we get the same phone ba. ^^

we were quite sweet just now
the tone and feel was nice...
my mum dont seems to "fan dui'
but, I still feel something is missing...

I was again pissed off when I heard she told uncle ming and ur head
about the ytd things
my god! I didnt know u're so petty lo!!
small things also wan to complain
nothing to say
hope u didnt get into trouble cos of me

I was rather pissed off just now
what had I exactly done?
why do u have to treat me like this?
treat me so differently lo! just becos I'm closer to lan now?
my god! u obviously like them and dotes them!
and when nobody wants to work till 11pm, u nv force them!!!
but for sw and I?? no choice!!
so.... unfair!!
but, who cares!!

anyway, I'm touched and happy tat u waited again just now!
u were disappointed when I told u I gotta work till 11pm!
so sorry!! next time okay??
will u wait again?? haha...=p
I'm curious why u wanna wait for me... hmm...
progressing?? we shall see! haha...

*10 nov is koji and yz's birthday... hope u guys had a great time! happy birthday ya! =)

it was sweet and nice of u to wait for me
I was really surprised and touched
but, u went home in the end cos my mum was here
why was she here everytime at the wrong timing?
Aiyo... I wonder what will the scene be if my mum isn't there??
U were happy that I'm working tml
why?? wanna wait for me again?
U wait for me is it cos gim mo told u everything?? My god!
so what do u intend to do??
u mind alot when u know somebody is wooing me
u were quite agitated too
we were smiling sweetly and even
say the same sentences when open our mouth
u were quite good to me la, I know and can feel it
thanks for waiting and sorry about just now

I was in a rather bad mood and 心不在焉
gim mo is treating me so... hmm, so strangely??
I also dunno, it's very weird, what happened??
忽冷忽热的... like wat the personality test said
thurs was good, fri wasnt good, tml is good again?
hahaha, we shall see...
anyway, why should I mind so much about u?
hmm, sometimes I think that u understand me more and
can give me what I want...

Aiyo, don't think too much... going to sleep now! good night! =)

Online shopping
this time I didnt shop for clothings
instead, I shop for cds and books!!
hahaha... I brought quite alot wor!! My god!!
my idol's cds and many many personality tests books!
wohoo!! I love personality tests!! ^^
I also found the book I want!!! ^^

Just gotta my pay and I'm starting to spend it!!
I want to change hp!!
U guys are so bad, all asked me to ask him get for me!
lol... it's not cheap eh!!
perhaps we can get the same phone IF we're together
hahaha...

We shall see ba...
we didnt talk for the whole day
don't u feel like talking to me
are we drifting apart??
or am I thinking too much??
I suddenly feel like talking to u, but...

I felt so giddy just now till I nearly fainted
stomach aches too, make my mood doubled
sigh... hope the day would be better for me later
it's too bad that I had to miss out the fun later on
they're meeting and I'm working
perhaps next time ba... haha...

I'm sick for a week alr
and I'm still yet to recover
seen doc twice and med is making my condition worse
head, eyes and throat hurts alot
ppl kept thinking I just woke up or I've just cried
Omg!!!
I look terrible too!
when will I recover
I kept feeling so tired and cant concentrate at all
what am I going to do??
am I having some weird disease??

Touch wood touch wood
hahaha... the worse thing is--having to work tml!
somemore have to face........

"Our first date"
it was "so nice" of u to call me early in the morning to wake me up!
other than the 2 of us, gim mo was there too
well, the turn out was not too bad la
it was a rather simple day for us, as we just went to eat, game and movie
u paid for everything, made me so paiseh, anyway, thanks. ^^
it was nice of gim mo to create chances for the both of us
thanks alot... =)

did we cherish the chances??
hmm, what u did is really contradicting
holding of hands for just the few secs and
touching of shoulder and waist and sitting so closed together in cinema
what does everything means??

maybe what gim mo said was right?
perhaps I should give u more time?
perhaps u're still struggling with some things
he can see that he minds and cares alot for me
but, it seems tat he understand me more than u do...
hmm... am I really tat important to u?

did I made the correct choice??

Everything's okay??
U were so angry just now
knowing that I was out with suwen and yz
but, u were mainly angry because yz was there
haha... why do u get so jealous and mind so much?
U got the hint?? U understand??

We shall see...
U're off today!! And u really asked me out...
I wonder how will the date goes
hope it would be a successful one
hope he knows wat to do la
hahaha...

what should I wear later on?
hmm... cannot wear too causal nor too formal
u were not very happy with wat I wore just now
u said it's too revealing! my god!!

I was touched when u called me on our way home
u said u were afraid I'll be scared and scared I'll meet 色狼
hahaha...

U called just now
TWICE...
U were so concerned and much gentle to me
u even asked about ytd, whether did they send me home
u were quite agitated when u know they didn't send me to my doorstep
有用吗??

u said u'll let me know when's ur off
will we go out?? hmm...
你会实现你的诺言吗??

Disappointed...
really disppointed!!
I thought u will...
I really really dunno what to do
I really feel bad, really feel like crying
is this really like that?
U asked me to come and I come, will u come if I asked?
U were angry and treat me quite cold and bad
is it ur fault or my fault first?
is it because of me? am I really wrong in the first place?
is it because of what I said and I do?

I guess the saddest thing is 当你想哭但又哭不出来!

Anyway, it's really great and lucky to see chan joo tze and qi feng just now!
好有缘喔, saw u at gek poh, saw u again at 900+
because of u, he's jealous and angry! Omg!!
He's so cold and fierce to me lo!!! Who am I to u pls!
So @#^&*$%#&*$%!*@#!(@

What will things happen later on?
Will it be a better day for me?
Everyone can see and sense what's happening and how I feel
Can u??

Today is the first day of the month and I'm alr feeling so
moody, irrated and disappointed
feel that everything isn't right
perhaps I shouldn't have work today

maybe I'm too tired
maybe I think too much
I guess it's like that

thanks gim mo for perking me up
treating me so good today
kept making me laugh and even help me pack
many thanks
U're really a good friend
(but, I'll nv forget how u make me so paiseh!)

really really feel like having a good cry
had been bearing it since afternoon
but...